An angel...

I'm awake still. I dunno why, but I am. I am tired....

Insomnia. I have it. It sucks. Do you dream of angels, and waste lands?

I had a dream a few months ago. I was in an apartment, with my sister, and my little brother. We went next door to do our laundry. Turns out I have wings. Like in Aion. Mine were white, and rather soft. We are in the middle of watching a show, when some sort of vortex appears, sucking out the neighbors. Me, my sister, and my little brother weren't affected. I lost my shirt somehow. So, I get another one, and modify it to fit the wings. next scene of the dream, I dream I'm using my dads van, to take a friend home. He wanted to drive the van so I let him. I look around, and it looks like this wasteland I was in was finally regrowing, yet in the distance, it was still grey and wastelandish. We get to a neighborhood, and my friend starts speeding. Hes doing like 45mph down a street lined with houses. I tell him to stop, and let me drive, and hes just laughing at me. Then he hits a kid. Finally he stops, and hands me the keys. he gets out and apologizes, and the dream ends.

Throughout this dream, I feel wings on my back, right where wings would be if humans had wings. When I wake up, I swear to god I had wings. For the next few days, I feel wings.

Did I have wings? I believe so. Do I still have them? I think so.

From Dreammoods.com: "To dream that you have the wings of an angel, indicate your sweet, angelic quality. Or you may be in need of some protection from life's stresses and problems."

I had this dream a few months ago. I still remember and feel it like i had it last night. Was it a dream?

My Special someone.

I play in Second Life. You've probably met me in there. Ghostie Caeran. A couple of weeks ago, I mated with someone I care deeply and love so much. His name is Charles Gide. I'm a housecat furry, and hes a Wolf.

See, he didn't trust anyone outside of his Master. He met me, and thought I was like the rest of those wannabe Doms, thought they knew everything, and whatnot. He figured I was going to take his Master away from him, when they loved each other so much.

Then, something happened. Over a period of three days, he fell for me. He didn't know why. I didn't know why. But the longer we were with each other, the more in love he fell. I started a family there. Nexy is my first, Spike is my Second, and Charles is my third. I love all three so very much. I would level cities, and entire continents to protect them.

Then, something else happened. I fell in love with Charles. Don't get me wrong. I love Spike and Nexy as much. Why did I choose Charles? I love him. I am unable to bear the thought of him going anywhere. I want to keep him close to me, and hold him when hes down. Hear his voice when he talks, and watch him smile as he laughs.

Charles Gide. I love you. There is absolutly no doubt about that.

"I'll never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you Sends me to Heaven"

Charles, I'm your Guardian Angel. I'm the one sitting in the field at the top of this screen, making sure you're safe.

I will always be there. Spirit, in person, and most importantly, in your heart.

I love you.

So here I am...

Yea, its been a while since I've last posted in this thing. The last time I posted was almost nine months ago. Well, here are a couple of updates.

Since I've last posted, my mom has become progressively worse. She knocked on my apartment door a couple weeks ago, and said, I quote: "I thought you were Matthew?" ... I am Matthew. She then stated:
"Please let him know I'm awake." Its beginning to get to that point where she doesn't know her own family, and its become more than just taxing on me. I've had to visit the psychologist a few times. It turns out I have a near Phobia level of fear of dealing with my emotions. Yea, I'm a basket case.

I also don't have a job yet. I'm going nuts, and my funding for my Schooling is about to run out. I have my Associates, and I am working on my Bachelors now. But I need some sort of income. I want to work. I really do. But no one wants to hire. It sucks.