A pulling....

A pulling of my heart, a feeling in my stomach that something is going to change, whether I want it to or not. Magically, psychically, inside. I went to a store the other day, looking for a book. I asked the lady for this book, she didn't have it in her store. So I looked around the store, and saw him. He was sitting in a case. I looked for a price, but didn't see one. And I stared. He spoke to me, not in my mind, but in the fiber of my being. Ikthys's. Yea, this is sounding weird. I know it is. But you know, everything happens for a reason. A double terminated quartz crystal, almost perfectly clear. Maybe a small spot or two on the inside that wasn't clear. But no one is perfect.

"Why are you talking like this thing is a person?"
Everything is aware of everything. Wavelengths of the consciousness. Some are long, like the trees and rocks. Some are fast, like the humming bird. And the human.

This crystal I was seeing, was telling me to buy it. It said "You're buying me this time. Its time to start getting ready."

"How can things talk to you? Like this crystal?"
All you have to do is listen. Everything talks. It is just us humans NEVER slow down enough to listen. For the first time in a long time, something spoke to me like that. So I bought it. I pulled money out of my fursuit card, and got a one time deal of $30 on this crystal.

Then, it pulled me to the Garden of the Gods. I was following my inner eye. I HAD to get to the GotG. There was no question. I get there, and start hiking to a spot. Something told me to get there. So I wandered around a particular area. The crystal showed me where I needed to go somewhat. I went there, and then it guided me. So I wandered around the area until I found the right spot. Ikthys's. Then I set the crystal on the rock, near a rose quartz that was firmly stuck in place, but able to be seen. And then I meditated.

Energy. The energy that was in my crystal when I bought it was tainted and old. It wasn't his energy. He was desperate to get rid of it. So I did. I expelled that old tainted energy from him, and his own shined bright against the aether. It was a pure energy. Then I tuned his to my own. A brilliant white-blue energy. I looked at myself when I did this. I sat about seven feet in the air, about six feet north west. And I saw myself there. My real self.

"To dream that you have the wings of an angel indicate your sweet, angelic quality. Or you may be in need of some protection from life's stresses and problems." - www.dreammoods.com 

Except I didn't dream them this time. I was shown, and I saw. It may have been only for an instant, but I saw it. A white-blue aura was around my body, and my crystal shined to almost blinding intensity of the same color. 

A conversation I had with a person:

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  August 24

  Matthew Ford

  • How can one tell if another is an angel?
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  August 24

  Joseph Zaba

  • well we are all angels .. spirit beings with great love an magickal powers .. da prob be we are stuck in bodysuits ina state of amnesia down here inda matrix
  • no such thing as a soul be more angel than another .. der be no favorites in Big Mamas fam
  • time 4 awakening inda matrix neo ...
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  August 24

  Matthew Ford

  • *nods* Are some more aware of that than others? I dunno if you remember, but I'm the one who had said I dreamt I was an angel...
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  August 24

  Joseph Zaba

  • yes sum (you) .. are ... a tricky thing to be too aware ... rest yer mind an nurture yerslf an do fun things .. our spirit family will guide us to our awakening all we gotta do is stay tuned in thru spiuritual practise an disciplin .. gotta run bro .. namaste an thanks 4 da chat!
    
    

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I've dreamed a few times that I have wings of an angel. I saw myself with white wings...maybe the above meaning is true. That I do have a real sweet and angelic personality, and I need protection. I don't know. I just know, that I saw myself with wings of white...the Wings of an Angel.