What 2013 Holds for me...

2012.

A year filled with new experiences, met new people. New experiences.

2012.

A year that will haunt me for years to come. A letting go of someone i hold dear, even though others still hate her. A lot has happened this year.

My mother was taken from her home by the state of Nevada, and put into a assisted living home. It was for the best, but it still haunts me. She knows where she is at. She still asks if she can come home. I don't call her often, as it always brings me to tears. I don't really think of it that much, for much of the same reason. There are times where I wish with all of my heart she was still that explosive woman back in early 2000. She was vibrant. Got perms. I truly hope when she passes, she passes quietly, and without grief.

2013.

As of me typing this, 5hrs 44min. It will open a new expanse of the world for me. Of the many things I would like to do, get a 24hr Fitness membership. I need to get back in shape again. Not to simply lose weight. (I weigh 149 compared to 125 back in 2008) But I would really like to get in good shape again. Also, to get in shape to be wearing my fursuit when I get it. Also, my heart and body isn't as strong as they used to be. I was able to lift around 1,500lbs with my legs in 2000, when I was at Job Corps, in Stead NV. I was in great shape then. Mile in under 4min 30sec. 28" waist size (though i wore 30" waist pants)...I miss that. So, I am gonna get a gym membership at 24hr fitness, and strive to get to that once more. I will feel great once more. Also look better too hehe.

I've also had time to think about things. No, not the whole where is my life going thing. I'm not worried about that. I know where its going. I had a thought. In the times like the game Skyrim is set, and whatnot, I do believe i would have survived a while. Swords, shields, magic. The like. I could see myself becoming an assassin, or a mage. In my current game, I'm the Archmage of Stormhold, and my sneaking level is 97. I'm part of the assassins guild as well. Maybe not kill dragons, but I would befriend them. They are Wise, and intelligent. They have lived thousands of years, whereas man has lived by a small grain comparatively. I would learn from them. I would intentionally learn their language, to respect them. So much knowledge.

"Dragons never existed!"
Beleive it or not, ALL fairy tales come from some truth. We, as the human race, have fallen to such a level where we can't even comprehend what it would be like if a dragon could be real. I would spend the rest of my living days to learn from him. And not even learn its Magics. Just LEARN form it.

"Dragons are Evil!!"
No. They are not. Humankind trespassed against their lands. Forced them to hide, so they weren't feared. Then, they became legend, then myth, then fairytales.

"They were never here on earth!!"
Probably not. Who said WE came from this earth? Who said, for sure, that God, or whomever made us here? Think Stargate SG1. Who said that didn't actually happen? For all we know, this is not our home world. Who says there wasn't magic a couple thousand years ago? A few millenia ago? Maybe not as magic is portrayed now, but certainly magic nonetheless. "Advanced Technology is seen as Magic to those that do not know." A very true saying. Keep your mind open to any possibility, and you will be surprised at what you see.